ARTWORK

ON HER KNEES

A cover for On Her Knees. Had a lot of fun with the gold in this one, haha, even if it's not as elaborate as it was in the Idolatry piece. I figure I shouldn't overdo it because the title and such on the cover were also gold. My favorite part is probably Idris's jeans/boots, too! v__v I should render clothes more often.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

IDOLATRY

Ila paying proper tribute to Idris as her Dominant and her father. ♥ Ring and knuckle kisses are very sensual and hot to me, and my husband all but asked for me to do something like this to help me get out of an artblock funk I've been in for the last little while. It kind of worked! And it gave me some new ideas, so. :)

Playing around with gold leaf on my monochromatic pieces too, and I definitely want to keep doing it. Might try out copper/silver accents down the line!

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

CAPTIVE CARNATIONS

Between Ila and Idris, there is no hiding their intimacy--familial or romantic. And shibari is often a charged, erotic intimacy between a Master and his submissive. To trust someone so wholly, to trust while trapped in bondage, helpless and vulnerable, is a gift not so freely given. When Idris comes to Ila with his proposal, she is reluctant to give him that gift--reluctant to show others the depth of their bond.

Despite her misgivings, she agrees to be her father's model for a night, for a small audience in a studio six hours away from their home. What follows is a heady trip into subspace for Ila beneath Idris's skilled hands as he wraps her with his ropes. She is a tool for him to demonstrate on in front of an audience, and it leaves her craving something more carnal than what he can give her there...

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

A KISS

A friend gave me some vintage romance photography, so of course I ended up using some of it as loose reference to draw Ila and Idris.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

DANCE OF VEILS

A night of normalcy was all Ila wanted. A night where her familiarity to her husband was not a constant weight hanging heavy above her. And so, that's what Idris wanted to gift her. Living out that dangerous fantasy presents itself as an invitation to a masquerade ball, and Ila slips her father her plus-one invite under two conditions.

The first: the moment they don the masks, they are strangers. Without name, identity, or blood between them. The second: they must have at least one other partner before they can mingle with each other. It's only fair, after all. A Songbird for the Stag, and a Wolf for the Doe...

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

WORSHIP

Idris sucked in a breath and rocked his hips forward, one of his gnarled, veined hands gripping the armrest with white knuckles. He stared down at her and groaned, "Suck my fucking cock habibti--"

Another slow, languid caress of her tongue on his cock head; another pulse of precum beaded and dripped off of his piercing. A shudder rippled through his limbs as Ila showed mercy and stroked her tongue over him several more times before wrapping her lips around him.

His fingers found her hair again, pushing it away from her face so he could watch her slowly sink down on his aching prick. He bit back a guttural moan at the feel of her lips pushing his foreskin back, braced a hand against his thigh, and guided her head by his grip in her curls. Every stroke of her lips and tongue made his dick throb, made more saliva mingle with precum and drip down his cock and her chin.

"Fuck, yes," he growled, then held her head still and nudged his hips up.

He took over the rhythm of pumping his cock into her warm, wet mouth. Every roll of his hips was accompanied by a soft moan. Her pale gaze locked with his dark one, and she slid her tongue with deliberate intent along the bottom of his shaft. She pulled a snarl from his throat and made his lip curl, his nose wrinkling with animal need...

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

HUMBLED BEFORE HIM

I wrote a short story and decided to do a cover for it, and this is the result of that experimentation. I've never done a proper cover for anything I've wrtten before. I usually just do an accompanying illustration and call it a day. Or I do the illustration first and the story second--point is, I've never done it quite like this before.

It was a lot of fun! It was definitely a lot easier to work off of something already written to get the feeling across, instead of doing the opposite. I think, moving forward, I'll have a lot more opportunities to illustrate what I've written, instead of write what I've illustrated, and I'm very excited for that. ^^

Also: Idris as an irreverant, elderly metalhead Dom is really hot. Especially considering this is an oral worship story and Ila's in a position adjacent to prayer here.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

WEDDING GRAVE

This one is special to me in a way I can't exactly describe. I think it's a culmination of factors, and one of those factors is a shift full-circle to my interests from over a decade ago. I'd discarded those interests a lot time ago to be more subconsciously palatable to other people, in an insincere attempt to figure myself out. When I uh. Already had a sense of what I liked, it was just easy for me to convince myself to let go of it for the implied benefit of other people's comfort.

This piece--and by extension the entirety of the Silk and Smoke duet--are also an accidental, but fitting, homage/love letter to the book Necrophilia Variations by Supervert. So that was a fun little realization on my part, haha. I had a lot of fun rendering this one.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

SIREN SONG

The moments before Ila drags Idris into the deep. He thinks it's to his grave--and, in a way, it is. But not all is as it seems.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

MISSED YOU

I've wanted to draw Ila sucking Idris's dick for a minute. My conundrum has been that I don't like POV stuff, either drawn or in live-action porn--I won't go so far as to say it's degrading, because that's not the feeling I'm experiencing. I think it's very frustrating, as someone who has an oral fixation and a bordering-on-fetish for dick worship, to never see how I feel about it, as a voyeur through the POV character.

But the POV character is always a man, so what I always end up seeing is his desire to have someone on their knees in front of him, to be used for his pleasure. That's fine, but I'm not the man in this scenario, I'm still the girl on her knees, and I want to worship dick. So I kind of both do and do not give a shit about his pleasure. I don't want to see "myself" on my knees, I want to see "myself" getting off on worshiping the POV character.

I want to be my own voyeur, because in being my own voyeur, I'm circling back to paying total attention to the POV character, as a vessel for my desire and an object to project desire on. I have thought a lot about this kinda stuff.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

UNTIL ALL LIGHT FADES

I'm trying to learn to leave some things sketchy again, so this was one of those forays into doing just that. ^^ I often use 3D models when I set up paintings and such--it's become a rare thing when I don't use 3D models I've either found, bought, or made myself--and that made me feel... Weird, I guess, for using 3D models for sketchier things. Like, my friends can just sketch and they usually don't need models, why should I? Turns out that was a mistake in my thinking and made it impossible for me to do smaller things for a while! \o/; So, fuck it, just use the goddamn models if they help. It only takes an extra half hour to set them up anyhow, and it saves me hours of frustration later.

I think I said somewhere that I wanted to draw Ila licking corpse!Idris's teeth, and that's what this was going to be, but in pure Namiin fashion it just turned into something achingly tender instead. Also, drawing Idris without his facial hair is so weird, but I felt like it would've disrupted his silhouette here, so. x)

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

FOREST HEAT

This piece is a redo of Her Father's Fire from almost two years ago, which was published in that mediocre smut anthology I've talked about before.

In the wake of that nonsense, I decided to be proactive and redo a piece that I've come to have a lot of conflicting emotions about. Mostly, I think I wanted to showcase how far I've come in the last two years in terms of technical skill.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

HER FIRE - CHOICE

A small painting of a scene from Her Fire that was scrapped. The art is still pretty, though. :)

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

EROS

Monochrome Version

Just wanted to revist Ila and Idris as Eros and Psyche again. The color version is almost an afterthought--I was more invested in making it finished as a monochrome piece than as the base for color, but I like both versions in equal measure. Color also always seems to catch people's attention more so that's the forward-facing version here, haha.

I want to do something bigger of Eros!Idris and Psyche!Ila again. Something fun and theraputic and a lot more researched so I can integrate the actual mythology better, and maybe build up some kind of written accompaniment. I really like writing, so that probably won't be hard to figure out.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

FORBIDDEN

Sirdi: an old warlock framed for the death of his king and dearest friend; kept prisoner to power the perpetual motion machine that keeps the airborne kingdom alive.

Inaam: a princess betrothed to a prince; used to suit his political end of destroying the kingdom's sovereignty and wrest control from its people in a blindsiding authoritarian coup.

Their love is forbidden, but that will not--can not--stop them from freeing the other of their cage.

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Meet Inaam and Sirdi: Ila and Idris's homebrew DnD characters they play with a group of friends in the Black Stag setting, who don't know about their familial relationship.

Inaam and Sirdi are an unrelated Mentor/pupil pair that Ila takes from the campaign and writes an alternate universe novel about. The novel I intend to write for them, actually, haha--so, a bit of character-ception going on here. I'm not sure what kind of manifestation they take in the DnD campaign and how that differs from their story as I intend to write it... Lots of meta I'll figure out at some point, I'm sure.

FLIRTING

Idris flirting with Ila in semi-public, taking advantage of the fact that they look so dissimilar. She's uh, really into it--probably happy her old man is relaxed enough to be bold in public. It's nice to feel wanted.

I did this because, of course, in pure Namiin fashion, I went and did a whole illustration for a dumb meme chart, where I only needed a couple of portraits. And I plan to do it again for another of these chart memes, haha.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

ROSES

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Idris prefers his personal space to the exclusion of even socially acceptable touch from others. The only one he ever lets--demands--touch him is Ila. She's all too happy to give him that. ♥

Originally Ila was supposed to be braiding his hair, but I was too tired to figure out how that might look when I first sketched this, so she just gets to hug him instead. Maybe I'll draw her braiding his hair at some point soon-ish. I had so much fun with his tattoo; I think this is the first time I've rendered it with this much clarity before. Should probably be more faded and a little blurry, but, shrug. Also, his crooked, stained teeth and the missing teeth and the front gap make me happy. That's my husband's smile. v__v

This was also an experiment in me trying to get away from using their head sculpts for everything I do with them. I used Idris's face sculpt to get some of his features figured out, but the rest is just references and eyeballing, haha. Want to move away from using models for every little thing.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

FRAGILE CROWN

I wanted to draw a dragon, and I wanted to draw Idris, so I combined them and out popped this Dragon!AU for Ila and Idris a couple nights ago, haha. It involves the magical marriage trope because that's apparently one of my baba's favorite tropes. Excited to do more with this setting and to draw Ila as a noodle soon! ^^

Title is a reference to the fact that his antlers broke in some kind of cataclysm, and have been repaired with kintsugi--but they're only decorative now. If he tried to use them for combat again, they'd shatter and be irreparable.

Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

"ARE YOU OKAY?"

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"... No. But..."

"Hmn?"

"I will be eventually."

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

TAKING PSYCHE

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Taking Psyche; Taking Soul

This was just a tiny AU for Ila and Idris as a one-off for a mediocre smut anthology. A smut anthology that pulled me after some idiot got angry about my art and scared the publisher and the organizer, and they rolled right over instead of sticking to their Freedom of Expression principals. Oh well. Maybe I'll redo this concept and make my own artbook full of Ila and Idris.

Two of two illustrations that were meant to be printed side by side in the book. Not quite a diptych, but I figure they compliment eachother nicely enough.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

TAMING EROS

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Taming Eros; Taming Desire

This was just a tiny AU for Ila and Idris as a one-off for a mediocre smut anthology. A smut anthology that pulled me after some idiot got angry about my art and scared the publisher and the organizer, and they rolled right over instead of sticking to their Freedom of Expression principals. Oh well. Maybe I'll redo this concept and make my own artbook full of Ila and Idris.

One of two illustrations that were meant to be printed side by side in the book. Not quite a diptych, but I figure they compliment eachother nicely enough.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

GOOD MORNING

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Just an illustration of Ila helping idris out with some morning wood. For some reason the image wouldn't leave my head until I painted it, haha.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

VIOLINIST

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Attempted to colorize this black and white painting and now I'm remembering why I never bother. Not nearly enough control of the color and I usually want to paint on top anyway.

Original Version | Blood Version

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Idris was classically trained to play the violin with his right hand in the 1960s as a young man, though he's predominantly left-handed. Within that decade, he and three friends come up with the idea for "Daughters of Iblis", but don't pursue it in Lebanon because it's extremely blasphemous; the band's whole gimmick is about a cult of women who summon a demon to make a pact and gain its power, but they end up summoning the Devil himself--Iblis--instead.

Concerned with total anonymity as he and his friends immigrate to the US and become citizens in the 70s, not only does he adopt the stage persona of The Black Stag/Iblis and use a pseudonym for band-related paperwork, he learns to play the violin with his left hand to throw family off his trail--who eventually cut him off/out of their lives anyway, for his confession of apostasy from Islam. Being a southpaw violinist for a middle eastern symphonic metal band that popped up out of fucking nowhere helps a lot with publicity in the beginning.

The band disappeared in the 90s, and then popped back up for a final, two-month-long curtain call over twenty years later in the same venue they started in. This is most likely him just practicing at home to remember how holding the mirrored violin feels. He'd kept up with playing throughout the dormant decades as an accountant and single dad--but, he played with his right hand... And if you know anything about violins, you know it takes years to master one hand, never mind both.

Ila knows that. And eventually walks in on him practicing with his left hand, with a left-handed violin, and suddenly she starts wondering about a lot of things that have been bugging her...

Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

FORGET NOT

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I think I painted this one on auto-pilot, more than I had any conscious idea of what I was painting as I was painting it. The rain was a last minute addition, but I'm glad I added it. I had Ne Obliviscaris's song Forget Not on repeat the entire time I painted this, eheh.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

MORNING

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"Good morning, habibti."

They often wake up tangled together, especially as the months get colder. Idris makes an excellent heated blanket.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

MY HEART

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A few months after Ila was born, Idris got a white ink tattoo of a half-bloomed rose on the inside of his forearm and officially completed his sleeve. It's all but invisible after twenty-seven years and him being dark-skinned to begin with, but if you know where and how to look, it can still be seen.

They both know where to look. ♥

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

PROMISES

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At least Idris has the decency to whisper vulgar things to Ila when they're out in public, haha. More expression practice, painting over the models I have sculpted of these two's faces.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

VULGAR

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Practicing expressions with metalhead!Idris, by painting over a head sculpt I made of his likeness with photo references off to the side.

This specific expression is filed under: Things he'd do to Ila out in public when she looks at him, then when she does a double take, his face is totally neutral. Probably looking at his phone or something. Dirty old man. A provocation and a promise, and Idris keeps his promises to Ila.

Bonus: Look at this comparison. That's three years, haha. I originally did this expression for some dumb naughty meme thing on Tumblr... He used to look so fucking weird. My art used to look so weird and unlike me. I'm glad that changed.

Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

IDRIS

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I've been doing a lot of Stuff behind the scenes (work I can't share, bouncing between projects, attempting to navigate life through... everything going on in the world), and in between all of that I got the bright idea to record some video process for something since I haven't done that in years. So, I did this second portrait of Idris based off of the blender sculpt I made.

The process video was a very nice success, and you can find it available for download here ♥

Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

SUMMONED

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On a whim I decided to play around with Blender the other night and made a quick sculpt of Idris's head--it's basically just a model sketch. Then I took some screenshots of it in this dramatic sort of top-down light and drew over them, and holy fuck it was the best decision I'd ever made in my life LOL. I almost wish I could do that for everything, but I feel like the cost of sculpting every single thing I intend to illustrate would outweigh the potential benefit in the time taken alone.

But still, this was a fun, successful experiment that I intend to repeat for some other things. :D I talk a little more about the process and whatnot on my SubscribeStar, too!

Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

GOOD GIRL

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Older/canned iterations of Ila and Idris from The Summoning. I just wanted to draw thumbsucking and there's not much other reasoning behind this piece than that, haha. ♥ I still love how her scales came out.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

SHYNESS

EXPLORATION

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Older/canned iterations of Ila and Idris from The Summoning. Ila giving Idris head for the first time--well, giving head for the first time at all. She is eager to please!

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

LATE AFTERNOON

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Ila and Idris's first time in the discontinued Victorian setting, after years of hiding their pining for each other from each other, then months of their shared confession weighing heavy on the both of them.

The catalyst for this dam finally breaking being an awful day of Ila being with her blackmailed betrothed, so--Idris decides to show her what real pleasure is. She's been in love with her old man since she was small, and he's always loved her in turn. So, it's no surprise that it comes to a head on the heels of a stupid boy trying to lay claim to what has always been the assassins' to claim.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

REFELECTION

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An older/canned scene from The Summoning that wouldn't leave me alone until I drew it.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥

HER FATHER'S FIRE

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A piece I did in October 2019 for a mediocre smut anthology that turned out to be not worth my time or effort. The art is pretty though. These are Ila and Idris's original incubi designs from the novel duet Her Fire and His Blood, which was a novel previously titled The Summoning.

Ila is mine, Idris belongs to my husband Diallo ♥